第31章论出游OnGoingaJourney(3)
Itisyoumaynotbeofatheobjedcesthatpresentthemselvesbeforeyou-thesemayreumberofobjedleadtoassostoodelidrefiobepossiblyuhers。YettheseIlovetodsometimesstillfondlyclutchthem,efrtodoso。Togivewaytbeforeparavaganceoraffedoohavetouhismysteryateveryturn,aakeaerestiheendisnotaasktowhichfeete“giveitaanding,butnotongue。”MyoldfriendCe,however,coulddoboth。Hecouldgoodelightfulexplanatorywayoverhillanddaleasummer’sdayaalaoadidaoraPialkedfarabovesinging。”IfIyideasinsoundingandflhtperhapswishtohavesomeooadmiretheswellingtheme;orIoret,wereitpossibleformestilltohearhisegvoithewoodsofAll-Fox-dehatfihemwhichourfirstpoetshad”;andiftheycouldhavebeencaughtbysomerarei,wouldhavebreathedsusasthefollowing:“HerebewoodsasgreenAsany,airlikewiseasfreshaAswhensmoothZephyrusplaysoFaceofthecurledstreams,withflowers’asmanyAstheyives,andaschoiy;Herebealls,andwells,Arbrooodbine,ddells;Choosewherethouwilt,whilstIsitbyandsing,atherrushestomakemanyaring,Ffialesoflove,Hohoebe,huntingisawtheboyEndymion,fromwhoseeyesShetooketerneverdies;Howshevey’dhimsoftlyiemplesboundwithpoppy,tothesteepHeadofoldLatmos,whereshestoopseaight,Gildiaiher’slight,Tokisshersweetest。”…
Ihaveogotoseeruis,pipanywithafriendoraparty,butratherthetrary,fortheformerreasoheyareintelligiblematters,aalkingabout。Thesetaunidovert。SalisburyPlaiicism,butStonehengewillbearadistiquarian,picturesque,andphilosophisettingoutonapartyofpleasure,thefirstsiderationaleshallgoto,intakingasolitaryramble,thequestioniswhatweshallmeetwithbytheway。“Themindisitsownplaorareweanxioustoarriveattheendofourjourney。Imyselfdothehonoursilywelltoworksofartandcuriosity。IoookapartytoOxfordwith-showedthemthatseatoftheMusesatadistahglisteringspiresandpinna’d-”desthelearhatbreathesfromthegrassyquadraonewallsofhallsahomeintheBodleian;AndatBleesupersededthepowderedethatattendedus,andthatpointedinvainwithhiswandtooiesiures。Asaiontotheab,Ishouldnotfeeltiuringonajourneyiryanion。IshouldwaohearthesoundofmyowhereisaninvoluntaryantipathyinthemindofanEnglishmantnmannersandnotioheassistanpathytocarryitoff。Asthedistaneihisrelief,whichwasatfirstaluxury,beesapassionae。ApersonwouldalmostfeelstifledtofihedesertsofArabiawithoutfriendsandebeallowedtobesomethingihensoroldRomethatclaimstheutteranceofspeedIoyramidsaretoomightyfleplation。Insuchsituations,sooppositetoallone’sordinarytrainofideas,oneseemsaspee’sself,alimbtornofffromsolessohinstantfelloort。-YetIdidhiswantverypressingosetmyfootonthelaughingshoresofFrance。Calaisledwithyahefuse,busymurmuroftheplacewaslikeoilandwiomyears;nordidthemariners’hymn,whigfromthetopofanoldcrazyvesselintheharbour,asthesudown,sendanaliensoundintomysoul。Ioheairofgeneralhumanity。Iwalkedover“thevine-coveredhillsandgayregionsofFraandsatisfied;feofmanwasnotahefootofarbitrarythrones:Iwasatne,forthatofallthegreatschoolsofpaintihewholeisvanishedlikeashade。Pictures,heroes,glory,freedoms,allarefled,theBourbonsandtheFrehereisundoubtedlyasensatiisthatistobehaditismorepleasihanlasting。Itistooremotefromourhabitualassostobeaontopicofdiscourseorreferend,likeadreamoraeofexistepietoourdailymodesoflife。Itisaamomentaryhalluaoexgeouractualforouridealidentity;ahepulseofouroldtransportsreviveverykee“jump”allourpresentfortsands。Ourromantierantcharaottobedomesticated。Dr。Johnsotlefothefacilitiesofversationinthosewhohadbeenabroad。Iimeehdelightful,andiructive;butitappearstobecutoutofoursubstantialdhtexisteojoinkindlyothesame,butanother,andperhapsmoreenviableindividual,allthetimeweareoutofourowntry。Wearelosttoourselves,aswellasourfriesomewhatquaintlysings,“OutofmydmyselfIgo。”Thosewhowishtetpainfulthoughts,dowelltoabsentthemselvesforawhilefromthetiesarecallthem;butwebesaidonlytofulfillourdestihatgaveusbirth。Ishouldonthisatlikewellenoughtospendthewholeofmylifeintravelingabroad,ifIywhereborrowaospehome!